Happy Birthday!
Congratulations on making it this far and being able to continue on your path. Keep up the good work!

you write: "Could it be that I have too much free time at this point in my life and that's why I'm wasting time pondering something as capricious as time?"

Yes, as a matter of fact, it could be exactly that. Get a job, hippie!

KIDDING!!!!!!

Oh, and I saw this little nugget of news - an addendum to your WalMart story which, as originally reported, was thought to be a telling sign of modern Americana. Well, I would argue this new wrinkle is even more of a tell on our collective psyche:

http://www.local6.com/money/2683654/detail.html

'Trampled' Wal-Mart Shopper Has History Of Injury Claims
Report: Woman Has Filed 16 Previous Claims, 9 At Wal-Mart Stores

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Whoops! 17th times a charm!

Well I'd recommend that you do something decent with your life, like join the Peace Corps., but you've already managed to fk that up too.

You are acting like an adolecent 33 year old. You hit it when you said you have too much free time. You obviously can not handle it. (its an art) Maybe if you went and got a worthless job you would feel better about yourself.

Frankly the mood swings are indicitive of some serious depression. You need to consider this.

You are likely still lamenting your squandering of a golden opportunity to 'serve' others in Samoa. It WAS pathetic. Look at the losers in your group who are still there. But it is over. Time to try plan Q.

You have to map out something big and you have to accomplish it. You don't have any choice. Its the only way you are going to regain your self respect.

I would imagine that aside from the support you have received, people are looking at you and kind of asking 'hey dude what you going to do?' As in 'when you going to stop ( jerking off, jerking (me, us ,yourself) around, being a jerkoff, acting like a jerkoff, treating (me, us, yourself ) like a jerkoff)---- choose one..many....or all if that is what fits.

If you are as smart as you think you are you will go back to school. Its a midway point in being responsible. Either that or go take pictures of people killing each other or dying and make a profession of living dangerously. Nice travel pics won't cut it as there are thousands of third rate picture takers wandering the world taking voyeristic pictures of pretty sunsets and sweet laughing kids.

I think you realize all this. You wouldn't insist that you will make it to 100 if you didn't accept the fact that you've screwed up the last ten years. ...at least from the perspective of today.

fai malosi

kalapu